Walked by Faith, walking by faith, walking by .....

I have been walking by Faith all of my life. It has not always been easy. Heck life is not always easy. Most of my life has been blessed with family, education and making a decent living. I came out of a dysfunctional abusive childhood. Most of the time believing (FAITH) in something better to come. The glass is usually half full.
I have always used suicide as a coping mechanism, since I was 12 or 13 when things got hard. I now know that it was the only control I felt I had over the situation at the time. It was always an option well into my late 30's. With more wisdom, ha ha, now I know that suicide hurts too many people. I was saved from executing my plan one afternoon by a simple phone call. There was enough of a distraction to nix the plan.
Anger bubbles up occasionally. I made the choice to get rid of the pain and remove an aggressive tumor. There are days, I would choose to exercise my right to pass with dignity. I know I have purpose, just struggling, as many do, with what that is. It's too easy to see what I can't do, or have lost, then what I can do. Right now the hardest part is not knowing how it will turn out. In my head (self talk) I can talk just fine, It's when I open my mouth, just sounds so garbled. This is nothing compared to what others have gone through. It's just difficult. I have to accept the plan, however different it is from what I had envisioned. Positive affirmation, I will walk by FAITH!

Grand Canyon Update

Visiting the Canyon is a must! Don't stay too long, you may take it for granted. The colors are spectacular at beginning and end of day. To get more perceptive take a day hike on the South Kiabab Trail. We were there two full days, and of course we could have stayed longer. We experienced hiking the rim (south), sunrise, sunset and a hike down into the canyon. There are museums to see and if you want to camp take a mule ride to the bottom and camp over night. We stayed just outside the Nat'l Park with many amenities at the Best Western. If you choose to stay in the park you can camp or stay in rustic accommodations that have been there for many years. It is hard to believe that the combination of geology, geography, water and time have shaped such a wonder. The present day amount of water going through the canyon is just a trickle compared to days of old. Now the water is put to use generating power and supplying water to millions. A lot of hard work and a great deal of politics created the present day system.

Another day trip to Anza Borrego Desert Park

Today I was able to go back to Anza Borrego Desert Park. Further investigation was necessary of the native campsite that I had mentioned in a previous post. A fire cleared the thick brush in the area to expose more artifacts. We found some artifacts; a shard of bone that had been tooled, chips of pottery, materos, however no pestals. Of course the area has been picked over for many years. On the way home we saw a herd of Borrego mountain sheep. Like the Bighorn, a little smaller.